Awake

You know that feeling in the middle of the night when you are lying in bed and you wake up suddenly.  The noise that woke you is now blurred.  The faint echo of it, still ringing in your ears is now questioned as real or as part of your dream.  Still, you can’t ignore it.  Your heart is beating quickly.  Your face is flushed and you find yourself gripped with either fear or the rush of adrenaline.  Needless to say, you are awake.  WIDE awake.

I don’t know how it happened, but today, I feel as if I have woken up.  I think when you begin to consistently look at the world and your place in it with purpose and meaning, something happens.  It doesn’t happen immediately.  But, I do think that one day something clicks.  I was speaking today with a good friend and we were talking about the things that have been on our mind.  Interestingly, he’s had one particular thing on his mind for a few weeks/months now.  I told him that it was the same for me, but a completely different topic.  I find it refreshing to know that I’m not the only one who obsesses over things.  Of course, maybe it’s not obsessing if you’re trying to work some things out for the better.  Maybe the spirit of God pushes you to contemplate certain ideas because He wants you to encourage more of his people to to be thinking about similar things. 

Meg Ryan speaks a line from the often panned movie Joe Vs. The Volcano.  She says, ”my father says that most people in the world are asleep and there are only a few people who are awake.  But those who are awake live in a state of Constant Amazement.”   I feel that many are somewhat asleep.  I assume the reason is that they aren’t people who have realized their purpose. 

When you suddenly realize your purpose or place in this big overbearing world, something happens.  The noise that was your life is now blurred.  The faint echo of it, still ringing in your ears is now questioned as real.  Still, you can’t ignore it. It has led you to this moment.  Your heart is beating quickly.  Your face is flushed and you find yourself gripped with either fear or the rush of adrenaline pushing you to act…to see this to the end.  Needless to say, you are awake.  WIDE awake. 

Are you awake?  As for today, I am.